Unexpected

I am eager to put this past weekend behind us, and grateful for the fresh start a new week can bring. On Saturday evening, I decided it was time to finally address the bag of clothes tucked away in our bedroom.  Inside were some of Jason's favorite things which no longer fit as a result of his weight loss while in the hospital.  I planned to list some on ebay and donate the rest to a thrift store.  Thankfully, I was alone when I first began pulling out items one by one.  Somehow I hadn't anticipated the flow of tears.  Too many memories were wrapped up in those shirts and pants.
My sister has the uncanny ability to call at exactly the right moment.  I am not a gifted actress, so she immediately sensed my distress.  She was kind enough to assure me that I was not crazy for weeping over a pair of camouflage shorts.  In keeping with her big sister duties, she helped me find perspective. How much different would this task have been if Jason was no longer here with me...if he was not at that very moment sitting on the couch eating fruit cocktail.  Meanwhile, when Jason noticed the pile of clothes later, he smirked and asked if I had decided to kick him out.
Sadly, the weekend's emotional roller coaster did not come to a complete stop.  I was deep in dreamland that night when I heard the first crash.  Jason had fallen while getting up to use the bathroom, and had landed across the room against the mirrored closet door.  Since he was wedged in a corner, it took us a half hour to get him up.  A few hours later, I heard him fall down hard against our bedroom door.  I helped him up and tucked him back into bed.  After he fell the third time, I stayed awake to help him if he needed to get up again.  I made the disheartening decision to bring his walker out of retirement.  It felt like a huge setback, but necessary for his safety.  When Eli woke up and spied it, his face fell.  I assured him it was hopefully temporary.  When I called the doctor last month after a period of falls, his nurse said it was normal to go through cycles.  Jason has an appointment next week for a well-check, so will air my concerns at that time.
"Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me."  (Psalm 51:12)